User blog:Snow-ish/I'm sorry -Vent-

I just gotta let this out. The past few days have not been good.

Even though I'm 13 and in the highest grade at my school, I'm still getting picked on.

I know they say "Just ignore them". I try. It doesn't f**king work. Nothing does.

My soul and my happiness have been leeched over the school years. I used to be cheerful and talkative. Now I'm quiet and solace-seeking.

Nothing seems to go right for me. Today didn't make it any better.

I got offered to go into "AVID" last year, and they recently reminded me. Ie, they told me today. It's basically their way of saying "Your grades are slipping! You need help! You need to be perfect!" I want to slam a book titled "NO" in their faces. I'll try and talk to mom about it later on how I don't want to participate.

I've become a husk in the void that is my life. Nothing matters. Sometimes I just want to go and be with Shatzi.

But I resist that urge and muddle through. I know one day I'll snap though. Nobody will be spared. Stress is on me like a mountain, and when I try to remove some, a landfill more piles on.

Friends moved. Pets died. I changed.

Slowly but surely I'm breaking.

Now the only peace I can find is on the internet. With you guys.

But not even you can help me this time.

I don't think anybody can.